dairy of a sad boy

 

 

Dear dairy

Hi today I really messed up my mother had turned my Pc off. My exams are near and I have to study. I try to do my best but I can’t do it. I think because everyone is de-grading. I try to prove them wrong butt I get depressed due to the constant de-grading. Even my own mother thinks that I will never succeed and I suck. Due to this I am now to not affected by the de-grading and like to stay to myself and not express anything. My teacher doesn’t understand what I am trying to say and just blame me, he call’s my mom in front of everyone and humiliates me. Sometimes I think what if my uncle was here nothing like this would ever happen. I am tired of life and sometimes I want to just fall of the roof and wish that all this is over. I just want this to be over we don’t meet anyone. I think that maybe if I was not alive would it make a change. It probably wouldn’t even matter. Mabey they would only be happier. It is not my fault that I can’t learnt or am not fast learner. I even think that on one will come to my funeral. I will live the life of a person who never got any respect. I will live to regret my life. Not even the youngers lie to come near me. Am I that bad. No one loves me. No one cares if I die. Where will I go if I die. It will be hell as I go bad deeds.

 

I just want to fit in like everyone. They just keep pushing me away. Like they don’t even care. Today I was also left away. No one included me in the photos in the wedding.

Hello again it is me. From 1 November my paper again come I know what is written in the book I just cannot explain it you know. I tried to do as much as I want but it is no use. I just don’t know that I want to live any more. Everyone I see they just look at me like if I am a disappointment but if they just look what’s inside me they will understand. I want someone who can help me in the time of need when the whole world looks at me as a shame but that person looks at me as a person who is doing his best. I want some thing just like just like this.

I am just sick and tired of this world and just wish that this stupid life was over. I know that I shouldn’t be talking like this you are the only one I can talk to about my feelings.

Today I went some where and I saw some one who I thought I would never meet. It was the girl of my dreams she was so cute and so pretty I just wanted to take to her I had never seen any one so pretty I wish I could see here again

Hello

How are you doing I am fine. So what are doing. I realy want to talk to you for some time now I just   have no one to talk too

I am so lonely a don’t know that what can I do whithout you no one likes me no one wants me I am going to write a decoded message so listen care fully

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Thx for your time I will try to keep you in touch